I feel somewhat nervous right now.
I don't know why.
Feels like Peter Parker, when his spidey sense is tingling.

Failures and Disappointments

I've just got to my lowest point of my life.
Failing and disappointing everyone.
This is of my own doing.
And now I'm having a little bit of a suicidal thought.
I'm thinking if I was better off, the world would be a much better place.
And everyone would be happy.
No one will be disappointed.
Damn.
This is a very low point, even for me.
I'm very livid of myself.
I feel like such a disappointment.
And sure, I can release all this pressure to anyone, but the question is to who?
Everyone who I can speak to I've disappointed.
I am so, so, ashamed to talk to them.
Even more ashamed to apologize to them.
So, all I can do is cry at the moment.
And is still crying now, alone, in the darkest pit of souls.

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P/S: Addicted to nyan cat for some reason.

Rants

Ohmaigad my research paper ain't going as smoothly as I thought.
A possible last minute change of the subject of the research is a very likely possibility.
Which is kinda shitty since I've studied a whole lot on the current subject.
Plus, I've got a literature test tomorrow and haven't studied for shit.
Gonna finish up this post, take a dump, and study my ass of for tomorrow.

Of Being Home

Honestly speaking, my home is a little bit too comfortable.

I can't study here.

To study, I really have to push myself to get out of my bed and my lazy ass to my study table too look at books and do my notes.

I love being at a place that is actually not my for, but only for studying purposes.

Like libraries.

But, that's the problem.

When at home, I become a lazy, skinny ass pig.

Gotta get a bit of drive to study.

Gonna get my shit together because exams are near.

But first,

a round of COD.

A New Start......Again

Took to many starts.
But hasn't reach the finish line yet.
Still, for a long time, the finish line is still not in sight.
Being a dick (as always), it's only cemented my name in the sands of time as a natural born soulless douche.
And for being a douche, I deserve the status quo I have right now.
So, let me sit in my own juices until I rot.
In the mean time and between time, Salam Maal Hijrah.